Anyway, I'm still here and still at my eldest son's house. Whilst I admit I am getting better I'm still having some very down days.
Since I left home at 17 I have always been somebody wife, girlfriend or mother. There has always been a 'significant other/s' in my life. Now I am totally alone and on my own and it's not, for me, a very pleasant experience. I know I can do things just for me etc., but everything seems a bit pointless on my own. A cup of tea in a café on your own isn't the same as a cup of tea with a friend to put the world to rights. I'm not after sympathy, I'm not playing the victim nor am I being negative, I'm just stating how I feel and recognising that. I will have to work on me. Living for me and doing things just for me. I have forgotten who I am so I will now have to try and remember who I am. Do "I" still exist?
|Breathe. Original photograph taken by Cliff Soden|
Anyway, the days are now getting longer and spring is finally here. The promise of new life, new beginnings and happier days.
I have bought myself a new-to-me car. A little Honda Jazz. She is just so nippy and much more economical than my old Astra. The Astra served me well and moved around the countryside with me.
I have also treated myself to a new PC and monitor for my creative art. A bigger monitor really does help.
My creative mojo seems to have come back and I've been doing some nice digital art. Two of my pieces have been accepted into an art gallery in America. I am very pleased about that.
I bought a second hand Canon EOS 450d DSLR. This is a huge learning curve from a bridge or compact camera so I'm having lots of fun trying to get to grips with that. Now the weather is better I'm hoping to get out more and take some nice if not stunning photos.
Signing off for now. toodle pip.