Saturday, 5 April 2014

Remembering me!

Well, I think I'm getting worse at posting on my blog not better. I apologise.

Anyway, I'm still here and still at my eldest son's house. Whilst I admit I am getting better I'm still having some very down days.

Since I left home at 17 I have always been somebody wife, girlfriend or mother. There has always been a 'significant other/s' in my life. Now I am totally alone and on my own and it's not, for me, a very pleasant experience. I know I can do things just for me etc., but everything seems a bit pointless on my own. A cup of tea in a café on your own isn't the same as a cup of tea with a friend to put the world to rights. I'm not after sympathy, I'm not playing the victim nor am I being negative, I'm just stating how I feel and recognising that. I will have to work on me. Living for me and doing things just for me. I have forgotten who I am so I will now have to try and remember who I am. Do "I" still exist?



Breathe. Original photograph taken by Cliff Soden

 
I created the above picture as part of a challenge. The brief was to create a piece of a place, real or imagined, where we can go to truly BREATHE. A cold, frosty morning is one place I can go to be alone with me and truly breathe. Original photo taken by my friend, who is not only a fab photographer but and excellent bass player. Cliff Soden. Some of the other elements are from Anna Aspnes.

Anyway, the days are now getting longer and spring is finally here. The promise of new life, new beginnings and happier days.

I have bought myself a new-to-me car. A little Honda Jazz. She is just so nippy and much more economical than my old Astra. The Astra served me well and moved around the countryside with me.

I have also treated myself to a new PC and monitor for my creative art. A bigger monitor really does help.

My creative mojo seems to have come back and I've been doing some nice digital art. Two of my pieces have been accepted into an art gallery in America. I am very pleased about that.

I bought a second hand Canon EOS 450d DSLR. This is a huge learning curve from a bridge or compact camera so I'm having lots of fun trying to get to grips with that. Now the weather is better I'm hoping to get out more and take some nice if not stunning photos.

Signing off for now. toodle pip.
Joy x

Monday, 6 January 2014

Happy New Year

Well, Christmas has been and gone and the new year is here and so am I. I'll admit Christmas wasn't great. Far too many emotions and tears but I feel much better now. I still get teary if I think about everything too much but hey ho, time is a great healer so I'm told.

Anyway, I have been doing some digital art and would love to get my business - Dragonfly Dreams - Inspired Digital Art - off the ground. Maybe now I'm living my life for me it will be possible.

I have had a couple of my pieces printed off as limited edition prints to see how they look and I'm very pleased.

This piece is 24" x 12" on museum quality paper. I can't wait to get it framed.



Winter Summer 24" x 12"



 

Wednesday, 27 November 2013

On the Move, Yet Again!

Well, I can't believe it's nearly the end of November. Where has this year gone to? My last post was back in August. Aren't I bad for not keeping my blog uptodate?

Anyway, I'm on the move again. Please note I said I not we. My husband has admitted he doesn't love me anymore and wants me to leave so I am. I shall spend some time over the next month with my mom and step dad then move over to stay short term with my eldest son and his family. Not ideal but better than a street corner. I have custody of my dog, Moss.

All of my possessions have been moved out and are spread btween four different houses. I just hope I have everything I need in the right place.

I shall be 53 33 in January, cough, cough. I am beginning to wonder if I'll ever be settled and have a 'normal' life anywhere. I'm getting too old for all of this milarkey. I am past my 'sell by date' now and on the slippy slope to old age. My husband has lived the life of a single man for the last six years, has phoned other women, and been on dating websites. I know I am better off out of this very toxic relationship but at this moment in time I feel very angry, hurt, sad, betrayed plus lots of other emotions.

On a plus side I have been doing a bit of digital art but I have lost my creative mojo a tad right now. Only to be expected I guess.

Roll on 2014 and hopefully I will be able to turn my life around and move forward.

 
Where there's tea there's hope.

Tuesday, 13 August 2013

My Other Blog

I have created another blog specifically for my Digital art and Scrapbooking. Please feel free to visit it and leave any comments.

http://dragonflydreamsinspireddigitalart.blogspot.co.uk/

Many thanks

Joy

Tuesday, 30 July 2013

Hellooooooo!

I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted to my blog. Mind you, we have now moved out of the caravan so I've been busy unpacking and trying to cram a gallon into a pint pot.

This house is way smaller than any other we've lived in. Well upstairs anyway. I have no sewing room.....Sob! I can only have a single visitor as the room with the single bed has no space to pull the 'pullyoutbit' out from underneath. On the plus side, it is modern and fairly clean.

No garden so to speak of as it's all graveled or paved. I do have a small border in the front garden though which needs weeding yet again.

I have started a new business though due to demand for my creative, scrapbooking talents ..... cough, splutter.

The business is called Dragonfly Dreams - Inspired Digital Art. I have set up a new blog just for that. The link I'll post later when I've written something on it.

Bye for now
J x

Tuesday, 14 May 2013

Sunrise at Turnover Hall

Sunrises here at Turnover Hall Caravan Park are quite lovely. If I get up nice and early I can enjoy the quiet of the start of the day. Here are a few random sunrise pictures taken over a period of a few days.

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Some of the sunrises are golden and some pinky/purple but always stunning, unless of course it’s cloudy to the point of seeing no sun at all.

Sunday, 12 May 2013

Life on a Caravan Park

Back in February my life took a very sudden and rather unexpected turn. My husband was basically given the sack, although he hadn’t done anything wrong. The farmer he was working for decided he couldn’t afford to keep him so just told him to leave. He was actually in breach of his contract, as he, the farmer, was supposed to give two months notice. This didn’t happen and we ended up moving out with nowhere to go to.

We were lucky that Ian's parents have spare room in their house so we were able to go there short term. Ian managed to get a job (which he is trialling for three months to see if the farmer and Ian get on before we commit) not far from where we used to live. But, there was no house with the job so whilst the farmer is buying a house close to the farm we have had to move into our touring caravan until the house is available. It is quite difficult living in one room all the time and I’m just grateful we have a large awning to store some stuff in.

All our furniture and belongings are in storage up in Morecambe, some bits are at Ian's parents’ house and some with us in the caravan.

We have been here two and a bit months now. We moved in on the second March 2013. It hasn’t been without its ups and downs, the weather early on was very cold and I’m very grateful the the caravan has central heating so I’ve never been cold. The site does have a laundry room so I’ve been able to wash our clothes. there is a lovely shower block too.

The site is actually part of a farm and has two resident barn owls which are active all day. It’s a real pleasure to watch them. There are also hares, lapwings and even a cute little hedgehog. There are plenty of birds, greenfinches, bluetits, a longtailed tit, chaffinches, ducks, pigeons, blackbirds and crows. Plus a few I can’t identify. I have been very conscious of the seasons change here. Maybe because I am really stuck in a field.

I don’t have internet access here so I’m very limited updating my blog amongst other things but I will post when I can.

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Our belongings all packed up ready to move from Cuil Dairy and go into storage. I seem to spend my life packing and unpacking boxes.

The move from Scotland to Lancashire (and I'll count the move from Scotland to Cumbria/Lancashire as one move), but the move from the caravan to the house and getting all our stuff from storage into the house as a separate move, will bring the total number of times I have moved in the last eight and a half years up to 12. I have told Ian that should he want to move again unless it is into our own home at Preesall, he is on his own. I will not move with him, it’s getting all too much.

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